My old version

I was putting myself far away before this

Just to make me safe

I went to everywhere alone

I tried to forget anything until i forgot everything

I forgot the place where I belong, I forgot those who always supported me, I forgot everything like nothing is important than me

I always had a me time. I don't care about whatever people say. 

All i know was how to make me feel safe so no one can hurt me.

I was take myself away from anyone. Even for myself

At that time I was thinking about nothing. But, its proven that is the way to make me happier. Well, actually i was even doesnt care about myself. I let the pimple grow, the dirty shoes and the fat belly. 

Its like I was put my heart on a dark room and lock them there. And I throw the key.

I was hiding from anyone. Just because I want to make myself Invisible. I want love find me by this way.

But no, love can't find you when you're invisible.

Now I have understand that love can't find me. So I started to find my soul back. I tried to love myself. I listened to every compliment then I put them as motivation. I always try to be better. To make love find me. I have realized that I was wrong. Don't let yourself lost your path just because of pain that given by someone. Prove him that you're better now. And everyone will deserve a good person to stand behind them. 

Pretty thought

Im on a process into a better person. I'm just preparing the best version of me for the future. Like, you know life is hard. Today you might became the happiest person in the world but, tomorrow you might became the worst person. Life is about ups and downs. I'm on my way into that. I just tried to be more statisfied and thankful for everything that i have now. Life is a world full of problem, and it getting more bitter day by day. So, without a big heart you'll life on a bad day. To relate them, I tried myself to be thankful for everything that i own and i've done. I thank god for every chance, for every fall, and for His blessings. Life is not about find someone who can make you feel better. But its all about yourself. You are the only person that can make yourself happy by thinking about a happy thought. Don't let anyone makes you fall. No one deserves your tears. 

Sometimes you want every person loving you. But no, you can't. Everyone is different and you always some minus. But don't let those who never cares about you ruin your day. Let them go. Put them in the corner of your heart. Keep spreading love to those who deserves it. 

You can't change someone into a better. But you can give them an opinion about being a better person. Let them think, so they will understand.

When you made a mistake, ask for apologize. 

When someone hates you, don't listen to them.

When God gives you a dark, find light

When no one is come to you, upgrade yourself

There is so much thing to do in this world. Its all depends on you. To became a better person on not. To look at the dark or the bright side. Love yourself. Spread love.