Mistakes

Well, its raining outside hehe i dont know how to start. Hmmm i just realized that i made some mistakes. Yes, everyone made a mistakes and so do I. As a human we make a mistakes everyday, I always make a mistakes, hurt anyone, and so then. Sometimes youre saying something that you think its just a joke but other person take it to serious and hurted. But you dont know if they're hurted. I liked to talk or make a joke about something and realized if that would hurt someone but yeah i cant stop, i always do it. I said something spontaneusly. I'm not a type of a person who can control my mouth on saying something. Right now im just try to remember who was hurted by me hmmmm 😪 well guys forgive me if i have a mistakes, forgive me if my word touches you, forgive me if i was wrong, forgive me if my jokes are not appropriate😊 I will always wanna be a better person. Goodnight guys!

On the nite like this

On the nite like this, i'd like to wondering about something. It rather about something that has happened or the future. Sometimes im dreaming or sometimes regretting. Life, ups and downs is an common things that everybody feels. Its not about hiding it from other people, but its about a pain that you save, and you keeps alone, a big pain because its unshared. But when you shows and share about your pain, maybe you can feel lil bit happy when some other new pain is comes bcs of you shared it to others. Ignore this random post i dont really have a topic, i just wanna put my brain-heart-and hands plays together. When some other people doesnt understand you. When all you do is blaming youself, and forget to thankful to Allah. But, admit it. There always a day when we're angry with ourself, being annoyed to be you, and feel that youre wrong and blaming yourself, feel like youre the stupidest person ever. Yes. You did.

I know that you miss.. You miss your childhood when everything was so easier. When something that made you jealous is when youre friend got the first turn to play slide. But now, your brain is complicated, i have to think about my future... When all i want to do is play. I wanna be like someone else. Even sometimes i love to be myself. A faith that given by my friends keeps me strong.

Yah maybe that some of things that id like to think before i sleep.
See ya

BIRU

SATU BIRU DUA BIRU TIGA BIRU EMPAT BIRU AKU BIRU. YES IM ON BLUEEEEE BIRU BANGET SEBIRU LAUTAN SEBIRU LANGIT DAN SEBIRU BIRU YANG LAINNYA. HAHAHAHA BARU KALI INI DEH NGERASAIN NAMANYA WARNA BIRU. ANEH KAN? BIASANYA WARNA BIRUUU ITU DIPAKE DI BAJU ATAU APALAH TAPI INI BIRU BIRU AJAH BIRUNYA DIMANA YAH HAHA DI hati HAHAHAHA ALAY BANGET KAN? YA GIMANAAAH DEH KALO GA NGERASAIN YA MANA TAU. SETELAH TERBANG MELAYANG LAYANG TERUS KEBANTING YA APA NGGAK BIRU TUH BADAN? BISA BISA LUKA LUKA GITU DEEEH SEMANGAT YAAA😍 SEMANGAT EMPAT LIMA AJA MASIH ADA YANG SERU SERU KOK. I LOVEEE MY FRIENDSSSSSS LOVE YA GUYSSSSSSS THEYRE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEED THEM. MULTICHAAAT ALWAYS MENGHIBUR. KITA LAGI BIRU BARENG BARENG. TAPI PAS MERAH JAMBU JUGA BARENG BARENG JADI SEKALI BIRU SAMPE TUMPEH TUMPEH MULTICHATNYA. UDAHDEH SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN. LAGI NYARI WARNA MERAH JAMBU NIH....

Flii away - auburn

i just want to fly away
from of all this pain
things don't feel the same
feel like im to blame
i just want to fly away
can't believe your gone
i feel so alone
want you to come home

now i been sittin here
missin you
thinkin bout those crazy things you usta do
and I can't help but think that its cuz of me
more then a friend
You were blood
You were family
and I try to stay happy but I can't
(N0) I wish that You were here things aint the same
(N0) I wish that now you would have listned
should have paid more Attention
but now its too late

i just want to fly away
from of all this pain
things don't feel the same
feel like im to blame
i just want to fly away
can't believe your gone
i feel so alone
want you to come home

i just want to fly away
from of all this pain
things don't feel the same
feel like im to blame
i just want to fly away
can't believe your gone
i feel so alone
want you to come home


you know that it gets hard for me reminiscing bout what we did
and its killiin me inside
I wish that I could change the past
but I cant
(N0) I wish that you were here with me but cha aint
(N0) I know that things won't get better til I move on
wish I could but the feelings so strong
wish I had the chance to apologize
no I never meant what I said that night
but now its too late

i just want to fly away
from of all this pain
things don't feel the same
feel like im to blame
i just want to fly away
can't believe your gone
i feel so alone
want you to come home

i just want to fly away
from of all this pain
things don't feel the same
feel like im to blame
i just want to fly away
can't believe your gone
i feel so alone
want you to come home


I wish that I could fly away
wish that I could fly away
to be with you
I wish that I could fly away
wish that I could fly away
to be with you
im missin you like crazy
missin you like crazy
I wish that I could fly away
im missin you like crazy
missin you like crazy
I wish that I could fly away

I wish that I could fly away
wish that I could fly away
wish that I could fly away
I wish that I could fly away
ew-oh
wish that I could fly away
fly away
fly away
fly away
fly away
fly away
fly away
fly away



Thanks to tess for these lyrics

Thanks to zoechick for correcting these lyrics

Auburn - So over you

Lately I've been thinking that it's time
To realize that I've been oh so blind
With you I never really spoke my mind
You put me down, didn't support my grind
Now I feel my life is so refine
Finally able for me to shine
(I'm so over us)

Never really made it to cloud 9
Now that you're gone I'm doing just fine
Can't believe I wasted all my time
I thought that you& I were so intwine
If I could I would press rewind
And leave everything that you gave behind
(it was never love)

Everything I gave boy you'd break it
I was so hurt that my heart could'nttake it
You used to tell me without you I wouldn't make it
But boy you should know...
I'm so over you, it's crazy.
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know,
I'm so over you

Don't even pull that I'm sorry thang
You don't even mean it because you havent changed
I could see you hold my frame
Maintain the thing so you could play your game
How you want me to rock your chain
But put me down to cover up your pain
What was I to do?
Boy you nearly drove me insane.
You'd cheat, I'd cry, then you'd explain.
Over & over the same routine
But me to hold on was such a strain
When I let go, that's when I gained, I'll never go back to you again
Boy you're nothing new

Everything I gave, boy you'd break it
I was so hurt that my heart could'nttake it
You used to tell me without you I could'ntmake it
But boy you should know...
I'm so over you, it's crazy.
Took your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you

I'm so over you (6x)
Boy those things you do
I'm so over you

I'm so over you, it's crazy
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you

I'm so over you, it's crazy
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you

roller coaster

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You - Ten2five

You did it again
 You did hurt my heart
 I don't know how many times
 Oh you... I don't know what to say
 You've made me so desperately in love
 And now you let me down
 You said you'd never lie again
 You said this time would be so right
 But then I found you were lying there by her side
 Ooh you... You turn my whole life so blue
 Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
 Ooh you... Successfully tore my heart
 Now it's only pieces
 Oh nothing left but pieces of you
 Oohh oh baby
 Ooh you frustrated me with this love
 I've been trying to understand
 You know I'm trying I'm trying
 Oh you... I don't know what to say
 You've made me so desperately in love
 And now you let me down
 You said you'd never lie again
 You said this time would be so right
 But then I found you were lying there by her side
 Ooh you... You turn my whole life so blue
 Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
 Ooh you... Successfully tore my heart
 Now it's only pieces
 Oh nothing left but pieces of you
 You turn my whole life so blue
 Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
 Ooh you... Successfully tore my heart
 Now it's only pieces
 Oh nothing left but pieces of you 
 

Stupid balloon

Oh my! Balloon yes im a ballon. Fly high, become bigger then broken. I dont wanna be balloon. I dont wanna fly if the end is broken. I just wanna stand on the ground. Never fly and fall. Stay till i ready to fly, fly and fall. I mean till im ready to fall. Ups and downs. I wanna stay in the middle even its flat. But is whole of better than fall. Just realizing that theyre same. They have pin for me, to burst the ballons. Never focus on one thing, always looking, and come to everyone, and gave the air for the baloons and made its fly than broke. Choose one. And left the other. But its too late. With my heaviest heart i wanna give up. Just wanna stay here, dont wanna go anywhere. No more drama


Brian McKnight - One Last Cry
My shattered dreams and broken heart
 Are mending on the shelf
 I saw you holding hands
 Standing close to someone else
 Now I sit all alone
 Wishing all my feeling was gone
 I gave my best to you
 Nothing for me to do
 But have one last cry
Chorus:
 One last cry
 Before I leave it all behind
 I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
 Stop living a lie
 I guess I'm down to my last cry
 cryyyyyyyy
 I was here you were there
 Guess we never could agree
 While the sun shines on you
 I need some love to rain on me
 Still I sit all alone
 Wishing all my feeling was gone
 Gotta get over you
 Nothing for me to do
 But have one last cry
Chorus:
 One last cry
 Before I leave it all behind
 I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
 Stop living a lie
 I guess I'm down to one last cry
I know I gotta be strong
 But 'round me life goes on and on and on and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
 Right after I get my one last cry
Chorus:
 One last cry
 Before I leave it all behind
 I've gotta put you out of my mind for the very last time
 Stop living a lie
 I guess I'm down to my last cry

a bucket of flower

I dont know why im so obessesed with flowers. I write this cause i got envy when someone hold a bucket of flower on their hand. Even when me and ririn gave a bucket of flowers to citra, i still got envious. I hold that flower like its mine, wondering if someday i will get a bucket of cute flowers. A bucket of pink and white aster. Oh so damn cuteee!

Btw, for anyone who read this. Just read and ignore, dont even ask me about what ive posted on my blog. Cause i will feel awkward and i will lose my sense of writing :p

something untold

yes, i have something that i hide from anyone. Dont know how to start, dont know how to tell them. Even in the deepest of my heart i wanna tell about that but my little hearts seems says that is better if i save it for myself. Little bit shy. Afraid of what they're will talk about it. Thinking and thinking. That what i do now, thinking about the right time to tell. Hiding something is not right but i have a reason why i choose to keep my story. Btw hahaha whomever who read this, dont think too serious haha isnt about a serious thing.

Mocca

Mocca, maybe you all guys are familiar with these word. Yes, Mocca is one kind of coffee. But in this post is won't tell about coffee but a band. Mocca is a band from Bandung. Until now they have 3 albums and many song. I loooove this band because the lyrics from all of their song are easy listening and also meaningful. I love all of their songs, the first song that i heard is I think I'm in love. My friend, fina informed me about that song. When i listened to that song, My mind seems tell me if thats a cute song. Then i downloaded another song Me and My boyfriend, on the nights like this and etc. and until now I still listened to that song and never get bored haha amaziiiingggggg but yeah i dunno why i just love the lyrics.

I wanna tell ya about the meaning from some of mocca's songs that i loved:
1. Secret Admirer
Yes, from the title you'll know if this song tells about a secret admirer. A girl who has a seceret admirer. At the first time that girl feel annoyed by the secret admirer but at the last when that guy lost she missed him.
2.  Twist Me Around
This song about a unhappy girl because her relationship isn't like what she wants.
"I've always dreamed of being couple like Daisy and the famous Donald Duck

Harry and Sally or Bonnie and Clyde all you have to do is knock"

3. What If

This is songs seems like a girl who asking about the seriousness of the one who approached her.

4. Me and My boyfriend

A girl who very happy because she had a boyfriend that always there for her. She always shared everything to her boyfriend seems like she doesnt need her diary anymore.

5. On the night like this

This is a very short song but this is so cute, about a girl who wonder if his boyfriend can accompany her and listened to her story.

6. My Only One

About a couple who fights but that girl realize if his boyfriend is her only one even tough her mom doesnt allow her.

7. I Love you anyway

No matter what she still loves her boyfriend. 

8. You dont even know me

She tells to a guy if that guy cant make turn her down because she wont give up. About someone who judged her when he doesnt know who is she.

9. Dear diary

This is a sad song. About a girl who thinks that she will leaving her boyfriend because she wants everyone is happy

Oghhhh i think enough i got lil bit confused now hahaha actually there still some songs that i loved but i think i'll post em later or you can search em by ursefl on google. Thats all see yaaaa! Hope you'll love mocca like what i did :p

Eid Mubarak

Hi guys HAPPY MUBARAK,
Because of I'm lil bit miss my blog so today I decide to post something hehe
when you're browsing, what kind of things that you like to search?
if me, myself I do really likes to search something on google, i'd like to search about DIY (Do It Yourself), crafts, photography tips, and about something cute. but, when I was JHS I liked to open facebook everytime I'm online. But now, i think that facebook is boring so i left facebook. I also like to youtube-ing to watch some random videos, but my favorite one from youtube-ing is listen to the some song that covered by someone, my favorite one is Jason Chen.
but sometimes, when i liked some songs that covered by the them, I downloaded the official song from the original singer. I'm little bit disappointed because the song that sings by the original artist isn't as nice as when it covered. Like a song from Ne-Yo, so sick. its sounds so nice when jason chen sings it, but when i download the original song by Ne-Yo hmmmmm too bad haha feels like I wanna download the covered song from Jason Chen.

That's some story about my habit when online!
see ya! HAPPY EID MUBARAK!

Disappointed

Have you ever feel so disappointed? Ignored? Or maybe unappreciated? Absolutely yes! You ever! Hahahaha So let's celebrate it